Right so I'm sitting on my sofa, something that I don't get to do without feeling guilty that i should be doing something else, I've just come back from Boots, trying to print some party invitations that I designed and Boots can't help me with this so I'm now at home trying to figure out what to do. Do I spend time on the web trying to find someone that can print invites without charging an arm and a leg or do I just go to the card shop in the village and buy a basic pack of 20 invites? Why do these type of things get to me, why have I spent hours designing these and am now worrying about the postage that businesses are charging!.......

This is something that I do often, have ideas but then have so much trouble trying to actually live them and its not money ,well I guess it is money. I think I'm always trying to save penny's when really all I'm dong is wasting my time, my precious time. My kids time. My husbands time.

I need to change. I need to change me, how I look at things, how I do things.

I have 10 minutes until I need to collect my daughter from preschool and then my day is over, not over but I mean my time is over. The rest of my day is about my children, my husband and I. It's about us. I will be cooking, cleaning, entertaining, cleaning, collecting, entertaining, homework, cooking, cleaning, entertaining, eating, homework (mine) then sleep or maybe some gorgeous husband time then sleep. So. How I see it that these 3 hours I've had t myself this morning I have wasted or have I. Shall I spend the time cleaning our house which I will then continue to do throughout the rest of the day in dribs and drabs or shall I look for a job, or what? 5 minutes left so I must go. Maybe tomorrow ill have a better idea of what to do, until then......